Reminder of my thankfulness ...

As we're getting closer to Olivia's transplant I find myself reading more & more about her condition. I know that GOD makes everything happen for a reason... But I'm human & find myself sometimes still looking for answers. Why has this happened to my baby, how could I/we have prevented it, how can I fix it all... Uuuufffff As I was reading more about her condition this morning (5:00 am to be exact) I came across the article explaining her kidney dysplasia condition that said... Quote: "A child with kidney dysplasia affecting both kidneys may not survive outside the womb. If the child does survive birth, early dialysis and kidney transplant will be needed. http://kidney.niddk.nih.gov/kudiseases/pubs/kidneydysplasia/ Reading that line is what helps Peter & I to forget about what Olivia has & concentrate to what we're blessed with. Her chances of survival were low to none & once she survived birth the doctors gave her 2 yrs tops before the transplant but GOD, our Heavenly Father was the one calling the shots right there next to us, not the dr., not us. He had a plan and still does and all I need is sometimes to be reminded that GOD is in Controll. What a peaceful thought that is to me... That thought gives me the extra breath I need to take when my emotions take over, when my heart feels like it's being stomped on when I hear/see Livi's struggles to just be a normal kid, my GOD is the extra breath I need to take when I'm needed to be strong & be my husband's support... Olivia is so amazing, so strong, so brave, full of love & life and that's what I need to be ThANFUL for and enjoy every second like it's the last one cuz GOD has blessed us with her. I need to stop searching for answers cuz Olivia is GOD's gift and I/ we did nothing to deserve her. GOD loves us so much that HE decided to bless us with the most precious gift in the world... Our Olivia Grace 💝